To what was lost.

I’m sorry for what I did but you need to know that I can’t just keep living in the past. Even if it is mainly because I didn’t understand or cared at the time

Especially now.

I guess in a strange sense this is now my graveyard of what I used to be and never to be again which at the same time is fine by me. Even if my new friends are downright mental and shitposters. I can live with that fact. I don’t need friends to take me seriously nor do I need friends who I feel uncomfortable around in fear of stepping on their toes.

To all those that I have abandoned I’m sorry,
I will always remember you.

In the meantime I’ll be here all alone in the grave I have dug for myself.